A Big Bummer!

It was confirmed from our agency that they were unable to lock ANY shared list files this month. This is terrible news because while I hated being skipped, I really really hate that we weren't skipped because NO ONE got a referral. The agency isn't really posting any information why, but I have a couple of hunches.

Hunch #1 - our agency locked so many the 1st month that China made them sit out this month.

Hunch #2 - our agency just goofed and missed the night when the list went on the system and other agencies pulled the kids.

Hunch #3 - there were no profiles that matched those of us waiting. This is their story, but with over 200 families in line it just doesn't seem plausible.

The good news is an individual list was sent to our agency with 25 children on it. 70% were boys and no girls matched our profile, but 11 families have been matched.

What does all of this mean? I have absolutely NO IDEA!!! It is making me crazier than I normally am because who knows when we will get matched or what future months hold. Yuck, yuck, super yuck. Good thing I have a scrum-dilly yummy little man to love on :)

Word From Our Agency

Just received the following email from our agency:

Sorry, but I don’t have any news for you yet. I do look forward to getting to call you with a match.

:(

I Feel Sick To My Stomach!!!

I just heard on my Yahoo group that the "big" list of shared lists hit the system late last night. I didn't believe it at first, but then checked with another agency that always posts the actual list and they confirmed that files were added today. They did not say there were a "lot" of files like they usually do, but just that files were added.

If this was the big addition, we did not get a call and with the new WC rules, they would have to call us the day that the list came out for us to be able to get back to them in 24-48 hours. I am so sick and hoping that this was not the "big" list. I think I am going to go home and mope. For Heather (who I know reads this and has been waiting 3 months longer than me - I REALLY REALLY HOPE YOU GOT A CALL!!!!!)

I'm going home for a pity party :(

Why Am I Quiet?

Thanks everyone for the emails and calls to see why I have been quiet. I thought I would also do a quick post as an update.

We have not been called and I do not think the list was posted as of yesterday. Monday was a holiday, so if its this week I figure today or tomorrow. Next week could be Monday - Thursday. I would have posted earlier but I was hit with an aweful virus and literally slept and got sick from 6 a.m. yesterday to 7 a.m. today. I am trying to go to work today because I have a class to teach and a closing to cover for another attorney so think good thoughts for me. Of course, I know what would make me feel better.....a call from my agency :)

Immigration Good News!

A couple of posts ago, I hinted that because our immigration approval expired in less than 6 months we may be skipped for referrals until we could renew. I mentioned that I was going to contact the agency and see what they would say, but to be honest I was afraid. Monday, my adoption friend, Jenny, emailed me to see what I found out what I heard and I couldn't take it anymore…I emailed the agency. I immediately heard back that we were fine and would be up for a referral depending on the files that were received. What a huge relief…I really should have emailed a week ago. I’m just a big chicken.

So, what does this mean? It means that the next time files are added to the list, our agency will be looking for a match for our family. It is very possible that they may not find one, but it’s also possible that they will find one and we will get a call. To make matters more secretive, we have no idea when files are added. For the past 2 months, they have been added on the 15th, which is exactly 4 weeks from each other. It is unknown whether China is adding on a 4 week basis or using the 15th to add files. If it’s the 4 week rationale, then that is this week. China had a holiday today so everything was closed. Tomorrow (actually tonight when we sleep) is the first time that files could be added. If they go on the 15th, then since it’s a weekend it may be next week. To top it off, maybe they have no rhyme or reason and it may still be weeks.

So how am I doing? For starters, I have no fingernails. I have always bitten my nails, but this rises to a new level. I am sure that I will have a hard time concentrating tomorrow through next week until we know that we have been called or that there is no way we will be called. Hopefully I can keep busy with some pretty interesting research projects that I have been saving.

Please keep us in your thoughts over the next couple of days. I keep having nightmares that for some reason we cannot accept the first referral that we have and I really hope that does not happen. On a funnier note, please send extra strength my way that I will stop shopping. I went over to our other house to move some of Baby Sissy’s things over to the new house and there are so many clothes in her closet that they will not fit in her new closet. That is what happens when (1) you have been waiting your entire life for a child that you always knew you would adopt from China, and (2) you really think your first born is a girl before the ultrasound at 20 weeks. I need to post pictures of her closet, so you will get the full effect of my illness. If she is a tomgirl, I am in big trouble!!!